After losing my phone and not knowing what to do with myself, I remembered youversion thankfully syncs everything online, so at least I can continue my 90 day reading plan (small victories deserve to be celebrated too!). I am sadly one day behind, so I get to play catch up but it's not that bad, as I have already read this section.
I am reading Exodus 1-15 for today, and it really brings into question why the Lord did some of the things he did! He asks Moses to continuously pester the Pharaoh, all the while he is hardening Pharaohs heart. Moses, through the Lord, brings tragedy in various forms to the people. There are even times when Pharaoh asks Moses to pray for relief, which he does, but then the Lord once again hardens his heart. Why? Is it just a power show? Does God have an ego just like the rest of us? Or is there some other method? Maybe the purpose is for us to see what He is capable of so that we will fear him. His reasons aren't always easily understood, but I am certain there is a purpose for these horrible actions.
Monday, October 22, 2012
Saturday, October 20, 2012
A letter to my body
Hey there body,
I have some news for you. So far we've had a fairly decent relationship, although I occasionally ruined that with the less than healthy foods you were fed, but for the most part I let you decide how things were going to happen, when to sleep, when to work, when to play sports and so on. But I have news for you. You are no longer in charge, I am. From now on, I say what gets put inside you, when you eat, when you sleep, when you workout, when you study. You will listen. At first you might not like it, the early mornings, the lack of sweet and indulgent foods, but soon you will realize this is the way you are meant to function. You will be happier with me in charge.
I hope you enjoyed the last eighteen years, because it ends NOW!
Sincerely,
Me
I have some news for you. So far we've had a fairly decent relationship, although I occasionally ruined that with the less than healthy foods you were fed, but for the most part I let you decide how things were going to happen, when to sleep, when to work, when to play sports and so on. But I have news for you. You are no longer in charge, I am. From now on, I say what gets put inside you, when you eat, when you sleep, when you workout, when you study. You will listen. At first you might not like it, the early mornings, the lack of sweet and indulgent foods, but soon you will realize this is the way you are meant to function. You will be happier with me in charge.
I hope you enjoyed the last eighteen years, because it ends NOW!
Sincerely,
Me
Friday, October 19, 2012
Musings on Friday nights
It's Friday night in res (well i guess technically it's Saturday morning because it's past 12, but you get the idea). Tonight I picked up garbage with Kin Soc, went to a potluck, did laundry, went to the gym, showered and planned my workout schedule. Tonight most other people got drunk, listened to loud music and went out. Why am I so cool you ask? Well first of all, I'm not a big fan of drinking. Not that I really have a problem with others consuming alcohol, but I really don't see the point in spending money on something that will make you do dumb things you forget in the morning. It also doesn't exactly go with the whole Christian lifestyle thing, or so I am told.
That's actually something that has bothered me for a while now. Nowhere that I have found in the bible does it condone drinking, I mean even in church we drink wine to represent the blood of Christ. So why are some churches so against it? I am falling asleep as I write this now, so I think it's time for bed/ my third day of bible reading.
Until next time,
Britt
That's actually something that has bothered me for a while now. Nowhere that I have found in the bible does it condone drinking, I mean even in church we drink wine to represent the blood of Christ. So why are some churches so against it? I am falling asleep as I write this now, so I think it's time for bed/ my third day of bible reading.
Until next time,
Britt
Tuesday, October 16, 2012
Bible in 90 days- Day 1
So I started this bible in 90 days reading plan and today in the first 16 chapters of Genesis. This is what our faith is founded on. The last verse of chapter 2 talks about how Adam and his wife (she does not yet have a name) are both naked, yet feel no shame. This shows that they are living in a "perfect world" A world with no sin, imagine?
It is in the next chapter that Eve is tempted by the serpent. He tells her she will be like God, she will see the difference between good and evil, never before did I realize how true this is. The serpent may represent the devil, but he certainly did not lie to her. It is after this that they realize they are naked and begin to feel ashamed. I wonder how differently the world would be today had this event not occurred.
Around the end of chapter 3 is also when we see the wrath of God. He curses Adam and Eve for their disobedience.
The fourth chapter introduces us to the birth of Cain and Abel. When Cain is distraught his offering was not looked upon favorably he murders his brother, what seems to be the first vengeful act. Eve also has a son named Seth, and Cain has many offspring.
In the introduction of the fifth chapter it reinstates the fact that when God created us, He created us in his likeness. We are to be like Him. Noah's father, when he was born stated "He will comfort us in the labor and painful toil of our hands caused by the ground the Lord has cursed."- a prophesy of what is to come.
In the 6th chapter God wants to wipe all humans from the earth, but Noah found favour. I couldn't imagine what would happen to the earth if humans weren't around to mess it up. Would animals evolve? Would climate change still occur? Also, the faith of Noah is admirable. He had to put his complete trust in God, he built an ark at an old age and trusted that God would take care of him and his family.
Is it a coincidence that the number seven occurs several times in the seventh chapter? i know it occurs in a lot of other circumstances too, like on the seventh day he rested, and Revelations is full of the number seven. Seven appears to mean the end, or completion of an event. Also, as kind of a side note, the patience of Noah must have been incredible, to sit on an ark as long as he did with all those animals, at 600 years of age is quite the feat.
It is at the end of the eighth chapter that God promises to never again punish all of mankind, despite the fact we are bred with evil right from birth. He promises, as long as the earth endures, that day and night will never cease.
The covenant of the rainbow is mentioned in chapter 9. It is an everlasting promise to never again destroy life with a flood. Noah drinks wine and passes out? But isn't drinking bad? When we see the clans of Noah's sons in Chapter 10, it is clear that the land truly is ours, and that we are free to spread out.
Up until this point the world has one language, one dialect. The people plan to build a tower to reach the heavens. When God sees this he realizes that through common speech we can accomplish anything, so he confuses the language and scatters the people. Why would he do this? If nothing is impossible, that would be a pretty fulfilling and easy life. Imagine how much we could accomplish if nothing was impossible, how fewer challenges we would have if we all spoke the same language and were able to understand each other and were willing/able to cooperate. There would be so much less challenge, is that why God choose to do this? To challenge us?
Abraham is introduced in chapter 12. He is another man who has great faith in God. He left his people and home behind, taking only his wife and his nephew and a few possessions He enters Egypt during a time of great famine, and tells his wife to pretend she is his sister for the sake of their lives. When God punishes the Pharaohs household for being with Abraham's wife, they are sent on their way. Throughout the next few chapters Abraham continues to serve God, parting ways with Lot, building alters to honor Him, rescuing Lot and defeating Kedorlaomer.
In chapter 15, God tells Abraham "do not be afraid, I am your shield, your very great reward." He is our shield, he will protect us, that's something to take comfort in. Abraham is also promised decedents in this chapter. Finally comes Chapter 16- the last for tonight, which is probably a good thing seeing as it is almost two and I will have to wake up early tomorrow to revise my paper and study anatomy and sports psych. Hopefully this and the other work i did tonight actually makes sense in the morning.
The final chapter for tonight tell of Abraham and his slave with whom he conceived a child. It tells of her misery with her mistress, Sarai. This kind of makes the slave an unsung hero in the bible. She put up with the suffering doled out by Sarai to produce offspring, and for this the Lord has heard her cries.
Well that's it. Time for bed, I think most of the caffeine has worn off by now.
Until tomorrow,
Britt
It is in the next chapter that Eve is tempted by the serpent. He tells her she will be like God, she will see the difference between good and evil, never before did I realize how true this is. The serpent may represent the devil, but he certainly did not lie to her. It is after this that they realize they are naked and begin to feel ashamed. I wonder how differently the world would be today had this event not occurred.
Around the end of chapter 3 is also when we see the wrath of God. He curses Adam and Eve for their disobedience.
The fourth chapter introduces us to the birth of Cain and Abel. When Cain is distraught his offering was not looked upon favorably he murders his brother, what seems to be the first vengeful act. Eve also has a son named Seth, and Cain has many offspring.
In the introduction of the fifth chapter it reinstates the fact that when God created us, He created us in his likeness. We are to be like Him. Noah's father, when he was born stated "He will comfort us in the labor and painful toil of our hands caused by the ground the Lord has cursed."- a prophesy of what is to come.
In the 6th chapter God wants to wipe all humans from the earth, but Noah found favour. I couldn't imagine what would happen to the earth if humans weren't around to mess it up. Would animals evolve? Would climate change still occur? Also, the faith of Noah is admirable. He had to put his complete trust in God, he built an ark at an old age and trusted that God would take care of him and his family.
Is it a coincidence that the number seven occurs several times in the seventh chapter? i know it occurs in a lot of other circumstances too, like on the seventh day he rested, and Revelations is full of the number seven. Seven appears to mean the end, or completion of an event. Also, as kind of a side note, the patience of Noah must have been incredible, to sit on an ark as long as he did with all those animals, at 600 years of age is quite the feat.
It is at the end of the eighth chapter that God promises to never again punish all of mankind, despite the fact we are bred with evil right from birth. He promises, as long as the earth endures, that day and night will never cease.
The covenant of the rainbow is mentioned in chapter 9. It is an everlasting promise to never again destroy life with a flood. Noah drinks wine and passes out? But isn't drinking bad? When we see the clans of Noah's sons in Chapter 10, it is clear that the land truly is ours, and that we are free to spread out.
Up until this point the world has one language, one dialect. The people plan to build a tower to reach the heavens. When God sees this he realizes that through common speech we can accomplish anything, so he confuses the language and scatters the people. Why would he do this? If nothing is impossible, that would be a pretty fulfilling and easy life. Imagine how much we could accomplish if nothing was impossible, how fewer challenges we would have if we all spoke the same language and were able to understand each other and were willing/able to cooperate. There would be so much less challenge, is that why God choose to do this? To challenge us?
Abraham is introduced in chapter 12. He is another man who has great faith in God. He left his people and home behind, taking only his wife and his nephew and a few possessions He enters Egypt during a time of great famine, and tells his wife to pretend she is his sister for the sake of their lives. When God punishes the Pharaohs household for being with Abraham's wife, they are sent on their way. Throughout the next few chapters Abraham continues to serve God, parting ways with Lot, building alters to honor Him, rescuing Lot and defeating Kedorlaomer.
In chapter 15, God tells Abraham "do not be afraid, I am your shield, your very great reward." He is our shield, he will protect us, that's something to take comfort in. Abraham is also promised decedents in this chapter. Finally comes Chapter 16- the last for tonight, which is probably a good thing seeing as it is almost two and I will have to wake up early tomorrow to revise my paper and study anatomy and sports psych. Hopefully this and the other work i did tonight actually makes sense in the morning.
The final chapter for tonight tell of Abraham and his slave with whom he conceived a child. It tells of her misery with her mistress, Sarai. This kind of makes the slave an unsung hero in the bible. She put up with the suffering doled out by Sarai to produce offspring, and for this the Lord has heard her cries.
Well that's it. Time for bed, I think most of the caffeine has worn off by now.
Until tomorrow,
Britt
Wednesday, October 3, 2012
October 3, 2012
Hola
As usual, I have a ton of things to get accomplished, but instead I take the time to write a good ole blog post. So far today (it's only 12:00) I have slept past my alarm, didn't go for a run, went to the library, went to bio and now I am sitting in the library once again, not going to math, doing some kin homework that is due in about 20 minutes. I don't know why I am so freaking unorganized lately.
Anyway the entire purpose of this blog post was to write a to-do list in the hopes that posting it online where anybody could read it will actually make me accomplish something.
To Do before Friday
As usual, I have a ton of things to get accomplished, but instead I take the time to write a good ole blog post. So far today (it's only 12:00) I have slept past my alarm, didn't go for a run, went to the library, went to bio and now I am sitting in the library once again, not going to math, doing some kin homework that is due in about 20 minutes. I don't know why I am so freaking unorganized lately.
Anyway the entire purpose of this blog post was to write a to-do list in the hopes that posting it online where anybody could read it will actually make me accomplish something.
To Do before Friday
- clean bedroom
- study anatomy
- finish webworks assignment
- write sports psych self test
- write bio self test
- learn bio
- write bio notes from textbook
- make a to do list for when I am home
- make a list of things I need to bring back
- start looking for kin article
- put my bike somewhere else
- pack things that need to be taken home
Alright, now to go to class, then start accomplishing these wonderful things.
Until later,
Britt
Tuesday, October 2, 2012
October 2, 2012
Hey once again,
I don't really know why i am doing this blog thing, I think I had a purpose for starting it, but now I really can't remember why, maybe it was to stop the amount of things that were running through my head... If I told anybody my purpose in this please let me know. Regardless I kind of enjoy blogging, even if there aren't that many people reading it.
Today was pretty average once again, noticing a theme, sorry to those of you who stumbled on this expecting something big and exciting.It started off with a shocking wake up at 6:00 this morning from my alarm (which sounds like a rooster which I am terrified of) going off under my bed, then I went for a pretty good spin class. My leg has been weird lately though, it's almost as if the muscle is lacking circulation, and my knee feels weird about 48% of the day. Nothing major yet though from what I can tell so we shall wait it out.When I came out of the gym it was absolutely beautiful! The sun was rising and reflecting a beautiful pink colour off the buildings and it was amazing, my favorite thing about the morning. Fredericton is pretty beautiful all the time though, I am often stopping as I walk out of class to admire the sharp crisp lines and colours of the city.
Anyway, getting back to the exciting things I did today, I went to math, got a 20/20 on my last assignment!!! Wrote a test, kind of knew what I was doing, went to Sports Psych, sat in class and scribbled notes as the TA read from Scottys notes, left about an hour early, went and did my prelab, went to anatomy, didn't understand one sweet word the prof said, went to lunch, studied anatomy, went to my bio lab, started our end of the year project on savants, came back, ate supper by myself for the first time,came back and started studying, accompanied by frequent study breaks (most likely more breaking than studying). I have a flag football game in about an hour to look forward to, so it's going to be hard work up until then.
Until tomorrow,
Britt
I don't really know why i am doing this blog thing, I think I had a purpose for starting it, but now I really can't remember why, maybe it was to stop the amount of things that were running through my head... If I told anybody my purpose in this please let me know. Regardless I kind of enjoy blogging, even if there aren't that many people reading it.
Today was pretty average once again, noticing a theme, sorry to those of you who stumbled on this expecting something big and exciting.It started off with a shocking wake up at 6:00 this morning from my alarm (which sounds like a rooster which I am terrified of) going off under my bed, then I went for a pretty good spin class. My leg has been weird lately though, it's almost as if the muscle is lacking circulation, and my knee feels weird about 48% of the day. Nothing major yet though from what I can tell so we shall wait it out.When I came out of the gym it was absolutely beautiful! The sun was rising and reflecting a beautiful pink colour off the buildings and it was amazing, my favorite thing about the morning. Fredericton is pretty beautiful all the time though, I am often stopping as I walk out of class to admire the sharp crisp lines and colours of the city.
Anyway, getting back to the exciting things I did today, I went to math, got a 20/20 on my last assignment!!! Wrote a test, kind of knew what I was doing, went to Sports Psych, sat in class and scribbled notes as the TA read from Scottys notes, left about an hour early, went and did my prelab, went to anatomy, didn't understand one sweet word the prof said, went to lunch, studied anatomy, went to my bio lab, started our end of the year project on savants, came back, ate supper by myself for the first time,came back and started studying, accompanied by frequent study breaks (most likely more breaking than studying). I have a flag football game in about an hour to look forward to, so it's going to be hard work up until then.
Until tomorrow,
Britt
Monday, October 1, 2012
October 1, 2012
Hey there,
It's been a few days since my last post, things have been kind of busy. I didn't really do much this weekend, went to the movies and watched Finding Nemo in 3d, went to pushing carts and the football game in the rain on Saturday, and studied ever since then. I have a human anatomy midterm on Thursday that I am going to struggle with. I need to pull up my socks a little bit and start getting more on top of things, and stop being distracted!
Speaking of distractions I was chatting with a friend from camp today and I was reminded of how freaking much I miss and love a guy from the summer. This guy is possibly one of the most amazing people I know. He has a wonderful smile, and eyes that anybody could drown in. He is super nice and friendly and a little wild, but in an amazing way. He can pull me back to earth, and humble me like none other. He gives the best hugs in the entire world and could always make me feel better, no matter how upset I got. I actually felt sad when he was upset, and it hurt so much to leave him at the end of the summer. This summer was really weird too. It started off fine, we worked together last year so we just kind of went back to being good friends, but then we would have crazy adventures together, like getting lost in the woods and exploring for a while on canoe, and playing in the rain on a slip and slide, beach trips in the dark, even riding in the car with the music blasting and him singing along (did I mention he has a wonderful singing voice?). Things were definitely different than they were last summer though. Maybe it was because last year I was kind of lost and he helped me find my way or maybe it was entirely me overreacting and things were exactly the same as last year. Both are huge possibilities.
This is actually all I have been able to think about ever since I started talking to my friend earlier today. Last week I was in a huge group of people and we called him to help solve an argument and I almost started crying right there because I missed this boy so very much. So far tonight has been more or less the same, sitting at my desk trying to study for my anatomy midterm and he keeps popping into my head, memories of the good times we had together, regrets on how I was too scared to talk to him and tell him how I feel. That is actually one of my biggest regrets right now. I wanted to so many time, but kept putting it off, not wanting to make things awkward, or not wanting to stress him out, or being worried about a friend who he may or may not have liked, but really just being too scared of rejection to tell him.
I am not usually someone who feels emotions at all. I haven't had a wonderful childhood (it hasn't been awful either) so I learned through the years that sometimes it is better to not let people get too close because then it won't hurt you as much when they don't return your phone calls, or get new friends. I have had a barrier up ever since I was younger and have ran away from my emotions for a long time now and then he broke all that down, when very few before him have managed to do so.
I hate that I am still thinking about him in this way, when he clearly doesn't think about me at all, never initiating contact, and taking forever to reply to a message if at all, he is always the one to end the short conversation we have. Maybe it's a guy thing, maybe he's just being dumb, maybe he is still as blind as he was this summer when he had no sweet clue how much it affected me just to see him and how I melted everytime he smiled, or laughed, or sang.
I am going to see him in a few weeks at a youth retreat at the camp we worked at this summer, and I don't know whether I should talk to him there, and risk ruining everything, but he doesn't plan on going back to camp so when will I ever see him again anyway? Nothing ventured nothing gained right? This is something that isn't an easy decision and I know I will never be able to communicate anything in person, but I think I am going to write a letter.Sorry to anyone out there who actually took the time to read this entire thing, I realize how crazy unorganized it all is, but it really helped me sort out what in the world I should do.
Until tomorrow,
Britt
It's been a few days since my last post, things have been kind of busy. I didn't really do much this weekend, went to the movies and watched Finding Nemo in 3d, went to pushing carts and the football game in the rain on Saturday, and studied ever since then. I have a human anatomy midterm on Thursday that I am going to struggle with. I need to pull up my socks a little bit and start getting more on top of things, and stop being distracted!
Speaking of distractions I was chatting with a friend from camp today and I was reminded of how freaking much I miss and love a guy from the summer. This guy is possibly one of the most amazing people I know. He has a wonderful smile, and eyes that anybody could drown in. He is super nice and friendly and a little wild, but in an amazing way. He can pull me back to earth, and humble me like none other. He gives the best hugs in the entire world and could always make me feel better, no matter how upset I got. I actually felt sad when he was upset, and it hurt so much to leave him at the end of the summer. This summer was really weird too. It started off fine, we worked together last year so we just kind of went back to being good friends, but then we would have crazy adventures together, like getting lost in the woods and exploring for a while on canoe, and playing in the rain on a slip and slide, beach trips in the dark, even riding in the car with the music blasting and him singing along (did I mention he has a wonderful singing voice?). Things were definitely different than they were last summer though. Maybe it was because last year I was kind of lost and he helped me find my way or maybe it was entirely me overreacting and things were exactly the same as last year. Both are huge possibilities.
This is actually all I have been able to think about ever since I started talking to my friend earlier today. Last week I was in a huge group of people and we called him to help solve an argument and I almost started crying right there because I missed this boy so very much. So far tonight has been more or less the same, sitting at my desk trying to study for my anatomy midterm and he keeps popping into my head, memories of the good times we had together, regrets on how I was too scared to talk to him and tell him how I feel. That is actually one of my biggest regrets right now. I wanted to so many time, but kept putting it off, not wanting to make things awkward, or not wanting to stress him out, or being worried about a friend who he may or may not have liked, but really just being too scared of rejection to tell him.
I am not usually someone who feels emotions at all. I haven't had a wonderful childhood (it hasn't been awful either) so I learned through the years that sometimes it is better to not let people get too close because then it won't hurt you as much when they don't return your phone calls, or get new friends. I have had a barrier up ever since I was younger and have ran away from my emotions for a long time now and then he broke all that down, when very few before him have managed to do so.
I hate that I am still thinking about him in this way, when he clearly doesn't think about me at all, never initiating contact, and taking forever to reply to a message if at all, he is always the one to end the short conversation we have. Maybe it's a guy thing, maybe he's just being dumb, maybe he is still as blind as he was this summer when he had no sweet clue how much it affected me just to see him and how I melted everytime he smiled, or laughed, or sang.
I am going to see him in a few weeks at a youth retreat at the camp we worked at this summer, and I don't know whether I should talk to him there, and risk ruining everything, but he doesn't plan on going back to camp so when will I ever see him again anyway? Nothing ventured nothing gained right? This is something that isn't an easy decision and I know I will never be able to communicate anything in person, but I think I am going to write a letter.Sorry to anyone out there who actually took the time to read this entire thing, I realize how crazy unorganized it all is, but it really helped me sort out what in the world I should do.
Until tomorrow,
Britt
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