If you're looking for another optimistic "you can do this" blog post, look elsewhere. This is going to be my one and only rant about how I can't do something. Never again will you hear me say "I can't" but for right now you're either going to have to go with it, or stop reading- your choice.
I am so jumpy almost right now it's crazy. i have so much freaking school work to do and can't even focus. I have a giant lab due tomorrow, I have barely started it. I have assignments and mid terms due all next week. Just survived Tibbits week... barely. Now I have to plan our charity event. On top of that, I have done subpar thus far in the semester and will not have a scholarship for next year. I am way too focused on making friends and way too worried about what people think of me. I have a disgusting bedroom that needs to be cleaned in a bad way. I am eating horrible food and not working out nearly enough. I have not yet applied for a summer job. God is no longer the priority he once was in my life. I have taken the easy way out way too many times. I just got an angry email from my mother telling me to ditch the beer in a picture and to not have people in my room while I am skyping her. I waste way to much time doing absolutely nothing. I can't handle thinking about the future because I can't make it through a day. I am beyond scared for what is coming and don't want to make any decisions-EVER! I know what I want to do, just don't know how to get there, I know what everybody else wants me to do, the only thing is I don't know what I should do.
Okay, enough poor me stories. I am going to finish this lab by 11:30, then plan my week then go to bed! Let's hope that actually works :/
-sorry for the negitivity,
Britt
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